another day….

5 days….
5 days since carla left. oh well, bilin nya sakn na mg-update ng blog. so eto, im being a good friend. it’s so weird. i’m still not used to it. it was funny last friday, i was at katipunan with kaye. nghhanap kami ng iba pang makakasama tapos parehas namin naisip si carla. we both went like, "ay shet. wala na nga pala sa pilipinas ang gaga." hahaha. swerte nga ng sister ko e. she gets to use the phone more often these days kasi nabawasan ako ng phone buddy. pag si carla pa nman kausap ko, matagal. as in. lalo na pag ngbbalikbayan yun.

anyway, it’s been 2 weeks since i wrote an entry. lately ko lang napansin. hm…ano nga bang ngyari? wala nman msyado. i had my math long test last wednesday. ayos lng sya. i think il pass kya lang ang daming carelessness e. good luck to me. i also feel a little bad kasi i reviewed everyday for it tapos hndi ata ganun kataas makukuha ko. at 2nd take ko na rin pala. here i go again, expectations from myself. ack.

i was in a good mood last friday. i was so giddy with the thought that nothing would be bothering my mind for the weekend so i decided to go out. i went to citrus then went to embassy after because Pipo had free reservations for 5 people. we left the place around 230am. before heading home, reynald, pipo and i dropped by 7-11 to grab some drinks beverages and snacks. laughtrip yun AM radio dun. there was this caller on the radio. he sounded like an 80-yr-old guy. his arguement-"ang sex ay pundasyon ng pagmamahalan". the station had a resident shrink/pastor/whatever who did not agree with him. he pointed out different arguments and even included the Bible. i don’t know how that freakin’ debate ended. it was just so funny. everyone inside 7-11 was laughing. the cashier told us that they listen to that radio program so that they won’t get sleepy. haha. obviously, it was working. no one was sleepy.

i got home by 3:30am. slept at 4am. woke up 12:30pm because my dad went hysterical. my little brother has dengue. he rushed into our room and woke me up by spanking my legs and shouting angrily "hoy! gumising ka nga! may dengue si jeremy!" ugh. wow. good morning.

hassle talaga tumira sa Manila. it’s far from everything. palibhasa it’s either taga-QC, Makati or down South mga kaibigan ko e. reynald drove me home after embassy. ang layo talaga ng bahay ko.  nakakainis. and my dad wouldn’t teach me how to drive.

yesterday was not such a good day. morning til lunch time was a headache. afternoon was better because i bought myself new flipflops, watched UP win their first UAAP game this season and tutor place texted me yesterday. i took the job. di naman pala everyday e. whew!

today was not so good.

ES1 was shit. now im sure gonna have backaches & headaches every tuesday. i worked on a plate for 3 hours kanina. i really had a hard time drawing the one on the lower left part of plate 5. because of that, i did not have the time to check my phone inside my bag. 4 messages from kaye. we were supposed to go shopping at divi today kaya lng i prioritized a plate that’s just worth 10 points. i think she waited for like an hour at casaa. i am so sorry. i blame ES1 for what happened. i was supposed to meet ange at 4pm to get carla’s vcds. i kept on textin her and she told me to wait. so there i was…waiting for like 40 minutes. i got impatient so i just went home. it took me 20 minutes to get a jeep because all of the jeepneys were full at that time.

i have rapelling tomorrow. i kinda regret getting that for my CWTS. my heart stopped last wednesday because of that. even if i was wearing the safety gear, harness and all that shit, i still felt scared. maybe i was just scared because i did not want people to laugh at me just in case i lose control of the rope and curse while screaming my lungs out.

world’s greatest husband and mr. physics lab. hahaha. both of them are taken anyway. summer hottie is my classmate this sem. too bad he’s also taken. oh well.

Today is the last day of summer. im actually a bit excited to start school. masyado lang cguro akong nabato. i dont know. or maybe because im gonna be a sophomore. hndi na ko freshie! (wtf, parati naman ako napapagkamalan na upper year e. shyet.)

last night was weird. i was all set to leave the house to go to citrus, palabas na ko ng pinto tapos bigla ako di pinayagan kc i told my dad na il spend the night at essy’s place. in my head i was like, "hello!?  this can’t be happening. is my dad possessed? he’s not normally like that." but anyway, after all the drama i made pinayagan pa rin ako umalis. but on one condition, LAST NA YUN. holy shit. it took some time for me to think about it. ngdrama pa ko na "wag na, di na ko aalis (sabay irap then walk out)" kaya lang lumabas ang pagiging gala at mababaw ko. at that time i could not stand the fact that i was going to spend my last saturday night of summer at home. so there, i got out of my room, approached my dad in a pa-cute way "sige na nga, kahit last na." until now, im still thinking whether i made the right decision or not. the only thing that makes me feel that i did the right thing is my plan for this sem to "detox" (here i go again). if i cant go out all night, edi less temptation. err. kaya lng my dad has tendencies to be really forgetful so there’s a 90% chance na hindi last yun. hahaha!

citrus was too crowded at some point. nakakairita. hindi ka makagalaw. tapos when i got there hindi pa ko umabot sa open bar. ack. it was also kinda sad to see the decrease of good-looking guys and the increase in number of dirty old men. it was such an eyesore to see a high-class pretty & sexy girl who’s about my age grinding with/kissing a hairy, fat 40/50-year-old guy with receding hairline. conservative na kung conservative pero ang kadiri talaga tignan. hay. anyway, i still had fun hangin out with some new friends outside. astig sila kasama.

enrollment was a bit stressful because of the es1 part. grabe, tama ba nmang mgpa-raffle ng slot for that class!? i dont really like the slot that i got. i just took it so that i wouldnt worry about getting it by prerog. math54 (3rd flr math bldg) ends at 11:15, es1 (5th flr melchor) starts at 11:30. holy shit. this means forever late na ko for es1. crap.

fresh start ulit. one goal i have for this year is to surprise people. i dont know why. i dont know how. bahala na. hahaha.

Today is a monday and i just bummed around at home. one weekend is not enough to sleep off a whole week’s stress. pero shit pa rin, nastress ako ngyng araw. this is such a bad day. una, tinuhod ako ng sister ko sa ulo and shit, ang sakit niya sobra. it’s like i felt a buzz or something. next is the fuckin laundromat. PUTANGINA YUNG LAUNDROMAT! i lost 4 shirts because of them. because of
that, i bought shirts again. and guess what!? sinira nila yung print ng
isa. PUTANGINA NILA!!! nakakainis. para akong ngtapon ng pera e. i buy
my clothes with my own money. money that i work hard for. nakakainis.
and the sad part is, no one in my family gives a damn. i told them a
hundred times to change laundromats and they did nothing about it.
palibhasa kasi hindi sila yung nawawalan ng damit e. grr!!!! peste
talaga!!!!

anyway, stop na. ayoko na mabadtrip. i started training for a certain ad agency. we’re the local marketing arm of Yahoo! here in the country. if ever u guys know a company who wants to put up an ad on Yahoo!, don’t hesitate to message me. hahaha! tama ba nmang magplug!? hahaha!

i was at citrus bar last saturday. after SO long, noong time lang na yun ulit ako ngparty. i don’t know if this is a good thing, but heck, i missed partying. i almost forgot how much fun it is to go out, drink, dance and meet people all at the same time. i should go to another one this coming weekend! hahaha! i’m gonna make the most out of the last few days of summer. that night, i came home feeling dizzy. my dad saw me like that as i came in through the door.as expected, he did not get mad. hahaha! astig talaga si papa.

nakakatawa yun GE subjects ko for next sem, Film 12 & Theater 12! grabe, on the road sa pag-aartista to. HAHAHAHA! i was just kidding. asa pa ko nh. speaking of next sem, shet, medyo nttakot ako. i really really hope i pass all my subjects. and to do that, im willing to undergo "detox" again. haha. i know it sounds a bit lame but heck, it worked the first time i tried it. maybe it could work again.

summer did not go the way i planned it to be. i didnt go to the gym. i dropped math54. i did not go to bora. i did not have a summer job because i thought i was gonna be busy with math. shit. i hate it.

i am like the weirdest person right now. when i had math, i was always in the mood to drink and go out. now that i dropped it, i havent felt the urge to drink since then. ang labo. sobra. grr. i think im having one of the worst summers ever. i think last year was better even though i got into some uh…trouble. hehe. word to describe this year’s summer: MALABO. as in.

i really hate instances where u want something so bad, u do everything within your power to get it but in the end, u don’t. that kind of stuff RARELY happens to me. and i get so angry when they do because usually, when i work hard for something (and i mean really hard), i get it. this summer, i did not. and i hate the feeling. as in. there are times when i can’t sleep at night just thinking about it. i just tell myself that this time is not yet the right time. and that patience is a virtue. (okay, now everyone knows that i am impatient) i cant blame myself for that. hehe. ang labo nman kasi e. when u get to a point where u decide that it’s over, there suddenly comes a spark of hope. and when u see that spark of hope, u get so ecstatic and u become hopeful again. u don’t know when it’s gonna end. there’s too much mystery in it. nkakabitin. it’s killing me. argh. it’s so unfair. nakakainis rin sa mga bagay na ganun is minsan, hindi mo na tlga alam ang ggawin mo. u have no choice but to just wait and see what happens. u lose control with the situation.

hay, i think this is a sign of things to come. most likely, AY 2006-2007 will be challenging. as in really challenging. challenging in all aspects. sana lang na sa mga mawawala sa akin, may papalit na something better. *sigh* wish me luck. i hope i get through this without any permanent damage.

summer part 2 will be after summer classes. hehe.

it’s been almost a month now since the last time i blogged. heck, the last time i blogged about was that detox thing. hahaha. anyway, detox ended last march 30, 2006 at gaye’s house. that was after my chem 16 finals. woooohh!!! 27 days!!! rock on!!!! no wonder i was the only one drunk that time. hahaha. but that time was different, i wasnt the vomitting, noisy, englishera drunk….i was the sleepy drunk! first time.

my family and other relatives went to white cove at batangas last weekend. BEACH!!! i loved the sun and the sand so much that i ended up looking like a friggin nigga. and the tan lines, heck, now my back looks like a blackboard with chalklines. hahaha. the beach was fun. i wanna go back even if it means being deep-fried under the sun. but i hope this time there would be none of those dirty old maniacs. eew. good thing i was wearing a conservative beach get-up that time. i had to pity my cousin who wore a bikini.

after being deep-fried that time, i stayed at home for 3 days. i hid from the sun. i went out thursday night and headed off to ange’s place. PORNO THURSDAY!!! named by luis a.k.a. master (bow down!) oh yeah, no porno thursday next week…it’s maundy thursday. we slept at 5am and woke up at 9:40am. porno thursday was fun….and so full of people-bashing. haha. shet we are so cruel. uh-oh for karma. oh yeah, ej was also there with some of his friends.

last friday i discovered that im going to jobless for next school year and my upcat review stint is sort of on the rocks. holy shit. i think im gonna be broke for a really long time.

i was in xaymaca last night. it was a spontaneous thing. earl texted me at 8:30 and told me we’re meeting up at a salon in españa at 9:15. it was a miracle that i wasnt late. anyway, it was first time there in xaymaca. it was a reggae bar with lots of guys with dreadlocks. hemp republic was awesome. can’t wait for earl to burn me a cd of their album. btw, earl was a yfc acquaintance from way way back. i bumped into him again recently through chat. anyway, being the observant , lookin-around type of person, i noticed something weird and funny. the guys with dreadlocks touch & compare each other’s hair and try to see who has nicer locks. hahaha! i dont know if that’s a rasta dreadlock thing or if it’s just plain gay. and i think im agreeing with the latter. and then there’s this kid who looks 10 & also has dreadlocks. he jammed with the band for one song and he was a good drummer. after jamming with the band, he walked past our table….holding hands with a girlfriend who looks 17. 10 and 17. whoa, that kid must be really something. speaking of the age gap….i think that gives hope to "the master". hahaha! anyway, earl, paul (earl’s bandmate) and i went home by riding jeeps. it was my first time to commute in the wee hours of the morning (2:30am). it was a bit scary but i got home safe.

today was not good. i lost my cool when my 13-yr-old sister lost the stuff i bought. stuff that were supposed to be birthday gifts. my 11-yr-old sister found a pack i lost months ago. she gave it back to me and i had the most awkward feeling ever. i was left alone at home for a while. i got so bored that i cut my bangs. now they look weird. i checkd crs and it’s not working. damn it. anyway, before i end my bloggin for tonight, share ko lang na si carla bautista ay hindi na nman ngparamdam. hahaha. i hope enrolment goes well tomorrow. nyt!

Yes. i am again in the process of what i consider as detoxification. absolutely no vices, less dvd-watching, less going out and MORE studying. but it’s weird cuz i kinda feel toxic after some time of studying. haha. i saw ms. calsas today, our substitute science teacher when i was in seventh grade. after making chika and all that, she suddenly commented that i’ve gained some weight since the last time she saw me. in my head i was like, "wtf!? are u serious!? i looked like a freakin brown siopao when i was 13!" she was the first person who ever told me that i’ve gained weight since that time. it was weird but sometimes i think maybe i DID gain a lot of weight this year that it made me look chubbier than when i was in grade 7. but oh well, i’m trying not to think about it. food is my solace.

tomorrow is my last day of tutoring. i feel happy because i get to be free during the afternoon but i also don’t feel good about it because that would mean i would not be getting extra moolah for AT LEAST 3 MONTHS. shit. how the hell am i going to pay for beach trips, movie gimmicks and if it pushes thru, workout sessions (gym, pilates, kickboxing)!? i thought about getting a new job, maybe become a barista at starbucks but i dont know…i don’t want to feel time-restrained for the summer. i’ve been time-restrained ever since i started tutoring. ack. i really hope some miracle would happen that a day will come when i won’t have to work to gimmick and extra clothes money.

this sem went worse than i planned it to be. my grades are going down down down. for the first time in my life i am having fears in repeating one, some or maybe all of the subjects i’m taking up this sem. crap. this is so not me. i think i also forgot how to type reports and reaction papers. i made some for my Kas1 subject and i did not enjoy doing it. i really felt good lookin at it after i finished typing it.

my birthday is coming in a few days. and i am again getting older. in a span of 8 days i will be in my last year of being a teenager. i’m not getting all giddy and excited about it. i don’t want to celebrate. i don’t even want that day to come. as much as possible i want to treat as another ordinary day. i know i’m being such a big kill-joy right now and i don’t know why. maybe because i felt sad knowing that i should be studying for my exams on the 24th, 27th and 29th during my birthday. kainis. i told myself that after my last exam, i am gonna parteh. detox week will finally be over. and i am excited. hahaha.

this week’s highlights:

1. Monday indigestion. tummyaches lasted for 4 days.

2. Wonderful Wednesday- i rode a bus home and warthog-looking bus conductor accuses me of not   paying for a 10-peso bus ticket. made a scene inside the moving bus making everyone inside the bus curious and sent them staring at me. he did not want to admit that it was his fault even though some passengers were already giving testimonies on my defense. the bus supervisor/inspector asked for my name and contact number which i readily gave. then he scolded the conductor and told him that if it happens again, he’s gonna lose his job. while on my way out the bus, the bus conductor tells me "miss, sa susunod ayusin mo sarili mo a." i lost my cool and answered back, "kapal ng mukha mo, kayo ang kailangan mag-ayos." that really ruined my day. i went to mass at UST. there were so many people inside the church that it took me 30 mins just to get out of the church premises. While walking back home, i had to walk through the flooded roads of Laon-Laan. shit. See how wonderful my wednesday went!

3. Thursday- i rode a bus to work and the same old warthog-looking guy was the conductor of the bus. i didnt want to make scene so i just sat down and kept quiet even though i wanted to strangle him because of what he did last wednesday. oh yeah, joseph just got himself an obsessed paparazzi. hahaha. sorry dude, ibang level ka na nga.

4. Friday- icy’s birthday inuman at Drew’s. ngkaamats si Luis. hndi pa kc natutulog. seated next to our table were 2 adorable boys wearing red. what a sight to see. i have a feeling that they’re just high school boys but heck, they look really good. icy’s birthday cake was the best- a piece of Chocnut with a lighted Marlboro menthol stick on top. it looked so nice nobody dared to eat it. hahaha!

5. Saturday- basketball game vs UPIS. we lost but i scored 2 points. yey! hahaha. icy treated us to lunch at Italianni’s Greenbelt. Since it was her birthday, the folks at Italianni’s sang a birthday song for her and one of them danced. as in gumigiling tlga. unfortunately the dancing waiter was so not hot so i got goosebumps while watching him grind like a macho dancer. after eating, we rushed to g4 to watch Pride and Prejudice. I loved the movie. Keira Knightley was so adorable. and so was Mr. Darcy. I wanna watch it again! Oh yeah, Shakespearean English is so sexy. hahaha!

the past week was again a blur. right sandy? hahaha.

the song so sick has been playing in my computer for like a hundred times already. yes, i am so sick. im sick because i have freakin indigestion. huhuhu. i have a slight headache, the whole core of my body is terribly painful. i planned on studying math (again) the whole day but it seems like im too weak to do so. i have no idea what caused my seriously awful state. shit. so here i am…bloggin after reading today’s edition of the Inquirer.

STATE OF NATIONAL EMERGENCY. a nicer name for Martial Law. 1017 is just a few numbers from 1081. i must admit that i’m the one who were happy because of the cancellation of classes last friday and today. it sounds harsh i know but i cant help it. i mean, who the heck wants to go to school right now when things are in great chaos? if ever there were classes today, id wish that the administration will suspend it for us to join the rallies. today’s edition of the newspaper instilled in me the sense of nationalism. everything written in there was about the abolition of press freedom. it was really rude of GMA to suppress democracy on the 20th anniversary of the day it was restored. she has ruined one of the very few things that make us proud being Filipinos. the bitch must leave…NOW.

about the 13 days thing….
FEBRUARY 5, 2006= Manny Pacqiuao defeated Erik Morales and did our country proud.
after 13 days….
FEBRUARY 18, 2006= the Leyte landslide that buried hundreds of people alive
after 13 days….
MARCH 2, 2006= what do u think will happen on this day??

thank god for midterms. my math grade was saved.

nothing happened today. as in nothing. really. i was supposed to have 3 subjects for today but my kas1 & math53 prof did not come to class. That means that i was supposed to be off by 830am kanina! grr! kainis! if i knew beforehand that they weren’t gonna hold classes i should have went home na lang. so there, i was idle for like 6 hours- 5 hours tambay in UP and 1 hour couch potato-ing at my cousin’s house. damn.

i saw some students rally around the campus today. i sort of felt uh…sorry for them. ang konti lang talaga nila. they devote most of their time fighting for a cause pero wala nman nangyayari. i sometimes wonder what it’s like being an activist. wala lang. but one thing i’m sure of, if i become one, i won’t last long being like that. and i think i will never be passionate about it. damn, i shouldn’t be bloggin about these kinds of stuff. baka ma-turn off sa akin si atom. HAHAHA!

newsflash: poisoned students, a pregnant girl & a drug dealer inside my old school. for real.
according to many sources, there were some psycho students who planned on making a practical joke on their batchmate by mixing very strong acids inside her water jug. (practical joke pa ba tawag dun? i think that’s attempted homicide. haha.) unfortunately, their plan didn’t work out because innocent people were the ones victimized by their attempt. kawawa talaga. now they’re suffering from kidney failure & are undergoing dialysis. oh yeah, one of their batchmates was confirmed pregnant daw & drug test was conducted kasi daw may pusher na student. this issue could be just normal to other high schools but not with mine. grabe. people there are getting twisted and freakin insane. haha. natawa ako sa idea nila Reece na bumisita doon na mukhang sabog/high tapos ssabihin nilasa guard na pumunta sila dun para bumili ng drugs. hahaha! ano kaya magiging reaction ng mga guards dun?=p